Sunday, August 3, 2014


the sheets are clean
a humming bird
on the top of a tree
against a cloudy
summer sky
there is thunder
the cat rests
the potted plants
on an outside
as summer
marches on
a respite
at last.


Saturday, August 2, 2014

THE truth & YOUR truth

I recently left a job with a New Age organization I have worked at most of my adult life.  I did not start working there because I was a member, I had just simply answered an ad in the paper in my twenties and needed a job.  Needless to say, there were times during that 17 years that I “drank the Koolaid.” And at the time, it was delicious. It brought me out of reality. It was like a drug.

In all that time, I never saw one miracle.  I witnessed countless people struggling with their lives and the same old problems for years.  Not solving anything or moving forward to a happy or healthier place. In fact, I would say, it did the opposite.  I saw many slip further in a disconnection with the world, with themselves, with sanity.  I saw my own sanity slipping at times. Especially towards the end when I became increasingly convicted in my heart that what we were doing there…was wrong.

We began to ask for more and more money to stay open, cause, after all, the world needed this organization to exist or all would be shot to hell on earth, people would be lost and wandering in their lives.  In this time of economic struggle for so many, it was wrong to ask people to continue to send money in for this farce. To pay for something that is free to us all, the search for truth.

And THE truth, I believe, is unknowable to us as long as we have a body. We may never know THE TRUTH while we are here. We may only be able to discover our truth. There are libraries of books, and today we have the internet to do our own research, an endless source of information, with you as your own teacher.

I have never known anyone with super-human powers. And that’s just what these new age organizations claim, their leaders have some type of super-human power, so you should believe them, give them money.  I recently read, that if you want to know if someone is truly on a path of enlightenment, or has some special connection with God, look at their lives. There in lies your answer.

And the lives I saw of many teachers, one in particular, while alive, had used money from the organization to live a lavish lifestyle, with drivers and housekeepers on the organizations payroll. I do not think this was common knowledge to the members.  They asked members for donations to purchase a million dollar property in the 80’s, and in my opinion, mismanaged funds and lived extravagantly, thus being forced to sell the property a decade later. What happened to the millions of dollars that were donated? Useless, gone.

Within the walls of the building I worked in there was increasing toxicity, insanity, an absence of logic. I had to escape all that. I was just as guilty. I was collecting a salary off this shit and could no longer hold to my principles and self respect, or respect for others and continue to do so. I could no longer even just go through the motions and play the game. The whole environment was slowly chipping away at me physically, mentally and emotionally.

So remember. Enlightenment does not cost a thing. Spiritual exploration and deepening your relationship with God does not cost a thing. Your money and energy would be better spent on tangible help to organizations that do things like feed the homeless, bring water wells to villages, anything that will improve the daily lives of human beings. Not donating to some organization whose founder and leader claimed to have super human powers, with etheric masters about as real as cartoon characters that you can call on for help and send donations into with a prayer written out to them. Last time I checked, Fred Flintstone has no power to make your life better, answer your prayers, or fix your shit, because he’s not real, he’s a character someone thought up.

~Jenny Miller





Monday, March 10, 2014

I have read the Hermetica
I have searched under every rock
embraced other universes
in my mind

I have questioned
found answers
questioned again
found other answers
yet still I am searching

The spirituality of my childhood
the innocent acceptance
the want with all my being
to be in favor with him
that we call God
the prayers, the friend
who they say is always with you

Standing to hear
Yahweh, I know you are near
in a Catholic church
with my family
as a child
where after communion
my father would kneel down
and put his head in his hands
was always a moving and comforting

Perhaps right now
it is better
to revisit the spirituality
of my childhood
the secret one I had in my soul
that was fed by complete
belief, acceptance
and a face of God
that was a father
and a close friend.


Monday, March 3, 2014

Definition of Bless: To make holy by religious rite; sanctify. To make the sign of the cross over so as to sanctify. To invoke divine favor upon. To honor as holy; glorify. Bless the Lord. To confer well-being or prosperity on. To endow, as with talent. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ego, I bless you workday, I bless you Fear, I bless you The Unknown, I bless you Life Process, I bless you. Blessing can be a message of I bless you, I release you to your highest good. I trust in God’s plan. To bless someone rather then hold resentment, anger, disdain.... Is holy. It releases you, it releases them. This is my new prayer. This is my new coping mechanism. This is letting go and trusting. ~Jenny

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Let Them Eat Frito Pie!

Amidst the government shut down orchestrated by a bunch of squabbling children playing dress-up on a Romanesque stage the third most popular yahoo story as of now is Frito Pie, and Anthony Bourdains dislike of it, an apology, as lovers of Frito Pie were outraged by his opinion of it we...are as much to blame if there where gods in a lofty palace above that in fact did have a care and hand in the comings and goings of man, surely at this point they would throw up their massive hands giving up all hope for us as they exclaim "Let them eat Frito Pie!" ~Jenny

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Seneca quote (solitude and the crowd)

“Furthermore, we should often withdraw into ourselves; for mixing with persons of dissimilar natures throws into disorder our settled composure and wakens our passions anew, exacerbating whatever is weak in the mind and not properly healed. It is, however, necessary to combine the two things, solitude and the crowd, and to have recourse to them alternately: the former will make us long for people, the latter for ourselves, and the one will be a cure for the other: our distaste for the crowd will be cured by solitude, our boredom with solitude by the crowd.”

Friday, June 14, 2013

today I am studying Chopin & George sand what really is the truth? ~Jenny